Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Bend in the Road

"When I left Queen's my future seemed to stretch out before me like a straight road. I thought I could see along it for many a milestone. Now there is a bend in it. I don't know what lies around the bend, but I'm going to believe that the best does. It has a fascination of its own, that bend, Marilla. I wonder how the road beyond it goes ~ what there is of green glory and soft, checkered light and shadows ~ what new landscapes ~ what new beauties ~ what new curves and hills and valleys further on." Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery

A few months ago, my road seemed straight and unvarying. I was sitting at home, not necessarily discontent with my life, but feeling a little unremarkable. I LOVE being a wife and mommy and I would never give up that blessing, but I decided that I would tell God that I was ready for whatever new adventure He might have planned for me. I wanted to actively claim His blessing. Well, my goodness! How He did jump at my offer! I must admit that my heart was not prepared for what the Lord had in store for me. Maybe a new project, a little trip or something, but I hadn't expected to lose my home. You see, Mr. Browning has been quite uncomfortable about our living in such a junky neighborhood for some time, and finally decided to take advantage of the buyer's market.It has been quiet around here lately because the Brownings are no longer at the Greenhouse.

Instead we have been at the BIG...GREEN...HOUSE.

The Greenhouse:

  • sits on 1/2 acre
  • is roughly 1000 sq. feet
  • has a total of 7 rooms (with a stinky basement)
  • 2 bedrooms; 1 tiny bathroom

The Green House:

  • sits on 2 1/2 acres
  • 2,690 sq. feet
  • has 13 rooms (with a 3-car garage)
  • 4 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms (and you've gotta see the jetted tub!)

You may be wondering how I could feel anything less than enthusiasm over this move. Well, I'm not exactly conventional. Space and luxury aren't really important to me. I love my humble little home, with its uneven walls, extremely low ceilings, and even that stinky basement. I spent nearly a third of my life there, planning, remodeling, dreaming. It truly suits me. I put so much of myself into every corner. I brought my babies home to the little Greenhouse...

I know the argument: I can still do stuff to this house. But to me, putting a few pictures on the wall doesn't really make a house a home. This place is already done, new, complete. It doesn't need me. Someone else has chosen the details that reflect their tastes. I know it will never be "OK", but I must be like Anne and expect that my future can only hold good things. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

I have taken a step in faith and been obedient to my husband as he leads us. Now I am waiting for the blessings God has for us here, and looking for ways that I can be a blessing, too. Will you pray for me?


LDH said...

Dear Mama B,

Your post is so sweet... I will be praying for you as you adjust to your new home. I have so enjoyed visiting the Greenhouse and I am sure you will find joy as you make this new home special with your own touches.

Change is hard for me too especially when something holds such precious memories. Thinking of you :)

Kindly, ldh

Marqueta said...

I will certainly pray for you! A move is a big change. The Lord has ways of opening our hearts to homes that we do not care for at first (He did with me and this trailer house we're in now)!



Melody said...

Oh it is so hard to move on! I loved your sweet little home too : ( I will be praying for you, friend.

Emily said...

I pray it will all work out for you! I know how hard it is. As you know we just moved too, and I am relying more on the Lord for support and help to adjust! Hope you are enjoying a lovely Fall day!

Miss Jen said...

*hugs and prayers*
Changes like these are always
bittersweet! We moved almost
9 years ago from our small
2 bedroom house into a very Spacious one. At first it was hard and many tears were shed but~ the Lord was faithful and gave us hearts that changed making this house into a home!!

Your new home is BEAUTIFUL...
simply breathtaking and by God's
grace you can make it a lovely HOME!

With Much Love~ Miss Jen

Ivory Spring said...

Hi Michele,

I hope you will build more memories in your BIG green house! :)

Miss Riya said...

I know exactly what you mean. My post Katrina house has been complete for some time now, but it is just now starting to feel like my home, now that we have had a couple of years to make new memories here. I will be praying for you.
P.S. I'm glad your back....I was getting ready to call the police or something. LOL

Roo and Wren's Mama said...

Oh Michele - your new house is beautiful! And you may think it doesn't 'need' you, but you are such a good homemaker, and I know that you will soon make the house a real home... I'm sure the house is very happy that you have moved into it. :) Can't wait to see more pics. Happy unpacking! And good for you to follow your man - God will bless your obedience to Him!
p.s. loved the Anne quote!

Anonymous said...

I feel you pain. Three years later, my "home" is still 3,600 miles away. I still am waiting for God's direction, as I have no purpose here so far. I have faith... just keep waiting


Poetikat said...

Have you moved to a different neighbourhood with new possibilities for getting involved in something charitable? With the additional space can you maybe grow extra food that can be given to the poor?
I will pray that the Lord reveals his plan for you to ease your mind.

The Watts Family said...

Praying for you, I know how you feel I just moved again as well, and am waiting quite like you. Praying you get settled in quickly with much blessings to Praise and much laughter and new memories with family to enjoy ~Blessings Heather :D